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Granny's not feeling too well.. fell down at work.. mummy's asking her not to work but she's persisting to work. gosh... why cant she just listen to her children and not work? although im not really close to her.. but i just want her to be well.. i want her to watch me as i go down the aisle.. i want to offer tea to her like in traditional chinese wedding.. i want to see her with my children, her great-grandchildren.....
Me and granny dont talk much.. cos i cant really speak hokkien when i was younger.. She's 6 children, and has 17 grand-children.. she dont particularly favour me ever since i was young despite me being the eldest grand-daughter. However, ever since i came to australia, every time i go back, she will cook something in the canteen for me to eat.. all the yummy food that i love.. when im back in singapore, i make it a point to fetch my mummy and granny from the race-course, despite where i was, or how tired i m... i dont want granny to take the bus back to home.. i want to just do my duties for her.. i know she's getting old.. i just want to take care of her as much as i can..

just been told that uncle sam was warded in the hospital for 3 weeks.. due to diabetes and some other stuff.. daddy told me that he actually went into coma for quite awhile.. uncle sam was a heavy smoker... and he actually quit smoking because of the time he was warded in hospital.
i remember Uncle Sam as the uncle who fetched me from my grandpa's funeral at Telok Blangah to Yio Chu Kang where his burial was. He let me sit in the front, and told me "feli, u will grow up to be a beautiful woman"
Uncle Sam is cross eyed.. so daddy always makes fun of him.. he and daddy are like best buds.. every Chinese New Yr, he will give me a "fat" ang bao.. and will always say "u getting prettier and prettier harr..." i remember the times that he will smoke soo much.. that i commented to daddy when i was younger that "Uncle Sam is like a chimney" *smiles*

another bad news.. uncle brandon (uncle staying in rossmoyne) just got back from Singapore on thursday last week... he was admitted to freo hospital.. suspected dengue case.. he stayed for 2 days or something.. and when i went to pop by their place on sunday, aunty rena told me that he's much better.. even playing with the kids now.. although i didnt see him on sunday, but hearing his voice was good enough.

Was talking to daddy just now.. and he told me that uncle brandon got admitted to hospital again today at 5pm... he was feeling very dizzy, and there's some blood disorder or something..
Im not really close with uncle brandon.. all i remember him is "feli, eat le!!! u so skinny" everytime i go their place, he will ask me to eat and eat.. he will ask me to drink wine with him when we go to restaurants.. he will always pack a red-packet for all his nephews and nieces despite not being in singapore during Chinese New Yr..
He's a very fierce looking man... killed a dog with his bare hands cos the dog was barking at him and my cousin, went up to people when they point the middle finger at him when he was driving. He's someone i respect.. not because of his actions, but because of how he disciplines his kids.. he makes it a point to try to fly back every time his 3 children have any competition. He will massage their legs the night before their swimming competition. When i witness that, i acually cried..

He's someone that scares all of us (cousins) everytime.. but yet, he will never scold any of us... he love his kids alot.. and i really admire him for that.

3 different people... same kinda news... health deteriorating, old age catching up on them... They may not be counted as my immediate family (daddy, mummy or korkor), but they mean alot to me.. All the amount of work, the amount of money they've earned ever since they started slogging in their jobs.. and in the end, all of these no longer matter..

someone told me that this is part and parcel of life.. "all the money in the world cant buy back your health" <-- how true is that... we should treasure our health.. all i can do is pray for them. o God, hear my cries as i pray for them.. heal them in Your name..................................