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Search for a Star!!! im super excited for SFAS... its like such a big event for our church every year.. and thru these 4yrs, i've really seen how much zion has done to make SFAS better and better each year...

this yr, i will be participating in the drama... really stressed out, but i know i will be able to do it with God's grace.. as actors/singer/dancers on stage, we dont want to gain recognition for ourselves, but to let people in the audience know that we are doing this becos we've our heavenly Father that gave us such talents to perform.. all Glory goes to Him...

practise for SFAS is tiring.. but i know, practises really helps... although its straining, but by practising, i will be able to do it better and better..

been neglecting abit of my studies because of this... think i should have better time management... im sleeping far too much also... gosh..

mum's birthday is tomorrow... really miss my mummy alot.. she's feeling really lonely now that me and dad are not by her side... every time i miss her, i will just cry... everything in the past of how she treat me doesnt matter anymore.. all i know she's my mum.. and i love her alot..

Just pray that one day, mummy will get to know Christ, and to know why im so involved in church. One day, the barrier between me and her will be able to be broken.. one day.. looking forward to that... *smiles*

problems after problems, but i know that as long as we trust wholly in Him, he will provide.. GOD really held me up when i was down.. when i was crying and feeling soo down, God provided me with friends on msn to cheer me up.. Gosh.. thank god for yj jiejie.. she's such a babe.. always talking to me.. love u lotsss babe!!!!

i've learnt.. never to be a "yes yes" girl.. im someone that will readily help when someone needs help.. just "ok, no probleM".. but i guess, sometimes things wont go always that well when i readily agree... someone told me that if i really do soo many things at one time, soon u will grow to hate the stuff that u are doing.. cos u will be too pressured by those stuff...

so i should be committed and focus, and do best in the things that God wants me to do.. i just want to help.. but i guess, that sometimes do create troubles too...

everything at home has been solved.. thank God.. really.. i didnt know what to do that day.. felt soo lost.. felt soo cheated and betrayed.. but i guess, everyone has their own way of doing stuff.. im not them.. so yah.. but everything's been solved.. hehee...

serene told me that i should not keep everythin to myself.. she kept on asking what happened and stuff, but i guess i wont just tell pple my probs cos i dont want them to be tied down by my problems as well.. 1 person unhappy is enough, what for another??? o well.. but God actually placed friends close to us, to share our woes and happiness too!!! so yea... i should change my silly mindset...

having a terrible headache now.. guess its the Casino.. went there with little Sae Mi cos its her bday.. she's a super terrible girl.. actually won money, but the devil was within her.. and she just couldnt stop gambling!!! hahahahaa.. o well.. she's such a sweetie.. promised me lunch tml as well!!! hehee

alrighty, time to pop some panadols and go to sleep!! there's school tomorrow as well as drama practise!!!! OOOOOOO!!! SUPER EXCITED!!!

*~*feL*~*

gosh.. i just realise problems after problems are surfacing... i dont know what to do now..

am i a real arguable person?? someone that doesnt listen to advise??? someone that gets angry very easily??? why must soo many problems just surface this week.. hai~

God, i pray for strength to be upon me.. i pray that u will bless me off all of these.. i know that u are with me thru all my problems, and u can see every single problem that im going thru... God, do not let me lose my faith in you... i know that with U, everything is possible...

having aching arms now... time to sleep...

~fel~

just feeling very depressed all of a sudden.. feeling very lonely, very empty..

i realised that although yah, i do have alot of friends, but i dont have any close friends, friends that i can trust, friends that i can just share my burden/happiness with.. friends that i can just crap with all day long..

issit true that u can only have a few close friends in your entire life??? i need someone that will be there just to curb my lonliness.. rach is back in singapore, mabx in adelaide.. these 2 sisters of mine.. gosh.. i really miss them soo much...

i really thank God for friends.. just blessing me with friends all around me.. jes darling, joe and soo many more of them.. but i guess.. at one stage or another.. all of us will just go thru that lonliness period.. and im going thru it now...

sigh........

school has started...!!! hahaha.. looking forward to it actually.. this is sortta my final semester already.. no more playing hey... time to be serious.. after this and summer, i will be a graduate... hehee.. finally!!!

classes are pretty alright.. like i only have classes on monday, tues and thurs.. so yah.. pretty relaxed.. hopefully i wil be able to go thru those 2 accounting units... hai~ auditing seems tough.. but with God's Grace, i believe i can do it!!!

im really blessed to be living with my aunt now.. havent felt soo pampered in my entire 4yrs of studies here in perth... this is the only time man.. aunty cooks really good food.. like REAL good food.. she can open a restaurant anytime... and i always get a variety of food.. and the room im staying in, is really huge!!! there's a tv (which i dont watch), and a beanbag.. and like big wardrobe.. and also like a big queen size bed..!!! hahahaha.. big big room... good food too!!! no wonder feli is gaining alot of weight!!! ya.. tell me about me.. time to go do some exerise soon man!! hahahaha!!!

hahahaha!!! wonder whats aunty going to cook for dinner again!! and she bought like 2 big bags of mandarins... means we've got mandarins later tooo!!! hahahaha!!! i love aunty angie soo much!!! heheee!!!!

alrighty.. time to go downstairs and eat, and then head for ZLM!!! hehee.. 1st ZLM this semester!! wwwhhhooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!