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Hurray!!! my exams are finally over!!!

Think i did alright for both papers.... better be ok if not i will kill myself...

The CPA paper was easier this time... either it was an easier paper, or like what darling said, i know whats going on now the 2nd time round, thats why it seems easier to me....?
Finsia paper was ok... just that i didnt imagine it to be a 2hr paper, and i tot it was a 1hr breeze thru paper like the other one... but o well, i think i did alright with that as well... *prays*

Abalone season is starting this sunday!!! ha! not that i really like to go and get wet and dirty early in the morning, but me and dar have been going faithfully to the beach every sunday morning at 6am just to get some action of it! but its fun lahs!!! hehee..

And i've decided to go and apply for the licence so that i can catch some as well! and of cos, i will bring back the abalones to my bitches and family!! *hiak*

I'll be heading back to sg in 1 1/2mths time!!! cant wait mans!!! it will be soooo exciting!!! i get to go and see whats happening for the wedding, get to go and buy, buy BUY all the clothes, shoes and bags!!! im such a shopholic!!! ha! thinking about it also makes me drooollll man!!!

O well... time to go back to work again... will update more next time!!!

In the office now, trying to study for my paper tml...

Last min preparation on my side for this paper... perhaps im confident of the Financial Planning unit more, cos its what i do at work everyday... so tml all i have to do is to go into the exam hall and just spit out everything i have done at work for insurance i guess...

More worried about my paper on thursday... tat is my CPA paper... have been preparing for it, but still dont feel 100%.... not even 80% man!!! hai~ super slacker...

I reckon i've got a needle on my butt... i cant sit for more than 20mins studying... i must do stuff.. even yesterday, when i was trying to study ALL afternoon, i must get up, go and do the gardens, den study, go and make tea, den study, go and eat apple, and den study!!!

WHATS WRONG WITH ME!?!?!?!?!

O well... better go back and study... if not i will fail this paper...

all the accountants and de financial planning pple had a meeting with our Business Coach (BC) today... what the BC does is to talk to us all in a group to see how we are progressing in our work, any unhappiness and how we think we should improve ourselves.

The meeting was how we should communicate. From Transferring of Data, to Understanding each other, reaching an Agreement and finally, the outcome... Felt it was quite common sense, things that we would do when we will be delegating work to someone...

Saw lin crying when the session was about to finish... and i teared as well... reason was i felt unhappy for her... and i was still bearing something in me about Chris... i know i shouldnt hold on to that, but i dont know why, its just bothering me...

After that, i went to the toilet crying and lin was there comforting me.. i think we reach an understanding that no matter what we do, we cant change the surrounding that we are in... we cant change ourselves in a day, and we are not wanting to see changes in peoples' lives in a day as well... so... just bear with it lo...

Wanted to take my note pad back from the meeting room, and with both of our eyes swollen, BC and Peter was there still talking. so yah, we were "called" to go in to talk to the both of them.. and ya, me and lin, being emotional animals... we burst our crying... like babies..

But all in all, its a good session, we got to understand each other better...and for me, i managed to open us to our BC, sharing with him all de feelings i had bottled up in me... what he said was right... im a Feeler, and a person that will bottle up all my feelings within me... thats no good cos if one fine day, something were to trigger this, i will EXPLODE! and i did...

Learning to adapt to a working environment is never easy... and i finally got to understand it when im working here... im not complaining about stuff, and i know if im unhappy, i can easily move on to another firm and start afresh... but i guess, this place is a good stepping stone and learning enviro for me... im still learning, still gasping whats around me...

but i will be ok soon...

Darling came to fetch me from work yesterday...

When we were halfway on our way home, we were being "followed closely" by a BLUE HONDA CRV!!!

Followed closely seem like a nice way... that bloody arsehole was driving so close to my Echo, that he nearly kiss my echo's butt a couple of times!!! shit face!!! if i was driving instead of darling, i bet yah, i will just brake and let him bang into me.. cos it will be HIS fault then!!!

and when i turn around to look at him, HE BLOODY POINT HIS SHIT FACE MIDDLE FINGER AT ME!!!!

bloody old man!!! he's so going to get it from me!!!

im going to report him to the Department of something (till i find the right department) and smart enough of me, i took pics of his car!!!! *hiak hiak*

He is a disgusting driver, and will pose lottas problems to our roads!!! so im going to SUE him!!!

His number plate is: 1CJY 611, and its a Honda CRV (blue color). For those who sees this car on the road, help me take a better pic of the car so that i can get a clearer pic of him! The driver is a digusting semi bald man, ard age 40. Fat!

Alright!!! im an angry girl!!!

Had a "disagreement" with the associate director at my firm... shall not name him cos he's such an idiot.

All i was told to do initially by HIM was "can u pls help me with all this chinese words in the bank statement of .... client?" and i did...

later he asked "can u help me check if all the bank statements from July06 - Jun07 are there?"
and i did...

And he asked me... 'do u want to keep the file at your area 1st? cos im waiting on his previous yr's work from his ex-accountant to complete the job' <-- of cos i said ok, and left it sitting at the overhead compartment of mine..

That happened about a month ago..

Yesterday, the secretary received back the tax return from his previous accountant, and put it inside the file (which was on my desk)...

Fine... and HE walked past me... so i quickly went to ask HIM "the tax return u are waiting for is here... u can complete the job now i think..."

And HE said to me, YOU CAN DO IT!

I said no, i dont think so cos i dont know anything about the client, and since YOU are halfway thru it, why dont YOU just complete it?

HE said "no, u can do it.. JUST DO IT" <-- IN A LOUD AND UNFRIENDLY MANNER..

fine... i went back to my desk with the stupid file, and asked a colleague of mine what should i do with it... She asked me to go to HIS room and asked HIM what HE wants me to do...

I went to his room, he was punching the telephone pad calling someone, and i didnt mutter a word... i looked at him (with the file on my hand), and he said "LATER!" i tot ok, and i signalled whether i should put the file in his Work in Progress shelves... and he said to me, again in a damn dulan voice... "U TAKE THE FILE WITH YOU!"

I of cos was fustrated la... what the f*** u want? damn it... so i came out of his room, damn angry and did the fustrated "shake my head" look...

BLOODY F***ER, u know what he did? he shouted at me when i was walking halfway across the room, and said "DONT U DARE SHAKE YOUR HEAD AT ME!"

mother fu**ker!!! what the hell? now i dont even get the freedom to express myself la?

And that childish man, WHO IS THE ASSOCIATE DIRECTOR OF THE FIRM, actually called my boss and told him about MY behaviour...

Peter of cos summoned me into his room, and i just burst out angrily... i wasnt upset, i was damn angry.

And guess what happened today, the bloody no guts fool, who is 35this yr, is still acting like a kid... he is the associate director, and he has the bloody guts to say "its not my fault for screaming at her."

HELLO?????!!!

And he's not even talking to me, avoiding me the whole day and im avoiding him the whole day too like he's a plague.

Peter said i should be the big girl and go and approach him in a positive manner... but people who knows me would know thats quite difficult to happen... positive manner = CANNOT BE POSSIBLE in felicia's dictionary... i will probably scream or shout or bite or box or kick or do something to him in his room...

Glad that all my other colleagues are standing on my side.. all of them just asked me to avoid him, and dont bother about him... they know what im going thru... cos they've been thru worst, having to associate with him every single day...

*glad im not an accountant under that idiot*

Shit face... should i leave it for a couple of days before i go in or should i just go in and do de "positive manner"

Went to subway to get my all-time favourite Seafood Delite...

Stupid bugger gave me the wrong sub, gave me a weird looking one without my favourite pickles and olives... And he threw my cookies on the table...

Bought an air bed to sleep instead of squeezing on a single bed with dar.. brought my comforter and bolster from home to accompany me too!!! dont know when i will get to go back home, so all these are just preps for our future home i guess??

Wedding Updates:
So many things to do for the wedding!!! From the invitation cards, to the gown, to the location... my gosh!!! I seem to be more excited than my brother!!! i think he sees me as a pest now cos i keep on bothering him about it.. *grinz*

ok, back to work.. :(

My beloved brother just told me the date that he's getting married!!! whahahaha!!! im so bloody excited lah...

dont know why, not my wedding, but still................................

I love my brother alot... although we had our fights, quarrels, bad times in the past, but i still love him alot... and i know he loves me alot too... he dont really express himself well, but he always shower me with things that i want...

When i asked him to buy me some clothes from G2000 cos i got no more working clothes, he bought me a full suit without any complaints...

When i asked him what is he going to buy for my christmas present, he asked me what i want without a question...

although he always bully me, asking me to buy food for him, disturbing me about my clothes, makeup, artists i like and boyfriends, he is always someone i can count upon for advice..

He always buy nice dvds for us to watch, and he always gives me money when he knows im lacking...

My brother can talk nonstop too!!! which is really amazing cos no one will ever feel bored with him around!!!

I love u korkor!!!

Also, my future sis in law... She's the angel in my life, showering me with lottas stuff, caring for me when im sick... always looking out for me in her ways...

She is really a weed... someone who's so strong in her own ways... she can buy whatever she wants, and not use a cent from her dad's money.

She comes over to our place every weekend, and always buy stuff for me... when she goes out with us for dinner, she will always scoop food for me... those simple signs of love from her, i know she is someone who will really love my brother, and my family!

Ok, back to the wedding!!! i dont knw what dress to get!!! o, he's getting married in end of may!!! I should buy my dress now before it disappears!!!

Peeps, help me choose my dress can? korkor said i can wear anything i like, i will be the bridesmaid of cos!!! (a pretty one in fact!!!)

okok... dresses time!!!

I really love this green dress... very versatile hor??

Nice simple day dress..

The above one mite be a bit too casual???

Dinner Dress???

Opinions anyone??