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Time.. time seems to be slipping pass me soo fast.. im not even done with 1, and there are like tonnes of other stuff piled up in front of me... assignments after assignments, tests after tests.. why dont i have time to complete them??? sigh~ i really dont know... i just really pray that i wont lose focus.. i wont procrastinate anymore...

Just had Marketing Research Mid Sem last week.. the test wasnt difficult at all.. but i just totally blank out when i saw the paper.. i know the answer, yet i just cant remember.. why? hai~ never mind, i believe God will provide.. i know he will.. i expected to fail for that test.. although the weightage is quite high, but i promised myself that i will really just do my best for the assignments and everything to just push up my marks..

Search for a Star.. an event held by my church, Zion Praise Harvest.. its a yearly event, and they have lottas performances.. from acting, singing, dancing, band performances.. everything.. we are not professionals, all we have are willing hearts to perform for our heavenly daddy... as much as we want people to come to see us perform up on stage, all glory goes to Him.. he gave us the ability to perform up on stage.. Like what Pastor Joyce said, we are not focusing on the numbers, we are focusing on how we can bring our friends to Him...

I want the whole auditorium to be packed, to be packed with enthusiatic people.. wanting to know who we are, and why we are doing this.. and our willing hearts... im performing myself too.. will be acting.. and sometimes, i will just want to take all glory to myself...

O well.. i believe God will bless every single one of us there.. He will be there, witnessing our every move.. laughing with us, clapping with us as well.. He will be there...

the title of tireness.. im feeling tired now.. seriously.. just very tired and tied down by this performance.. i admit i dont have proper time management, but sometimes, i just feel that im soo tired of practising.. i got ill and everything.. but today, when we were together for drama, i realised there were many tired souls tooo.. people that stayed up all day in school doing their work, people practising for their other performances, people that are rushing assignments/tests, people that are worried that the props would not be up in time.. its not me alone... all of us are in the team.. and i know, i shouldnt be feeling down or anything now.. i should just continue encouraging my darlings.. "CAN ONE..." "GOD'S GRACE.. EVERYTHING IS POSSIBLE" like what lynn told me.. "at the end, everything will still be up one" yeah...!!!!!

I've got a test on tuesday, i've got 1 assignment due on thursday, and another on friday.. there goes fel' birthday.. hahahaha!!! nv mind, its ok.. used to it leiss.. when daddy asked me what i will be doing on my bday, i said "hopefully i will be done with my assignments, and then practise for drama, and then... nothing lo!!!" heehee.. its ok lah.. hahahaha...

o well.. time to go and wash up and sleep.. think i need to fetch old man to send his car in for servicing tml.. i need to exercise!!!!!!!!!!! *cries*