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I would be using this title quite often i reckon! dont know how many more exams i have, but yah... all for the 3 alphabets, or in my case, a few extra alphabets on my name card. Darn!

Anyways, exam went pretty alright. i think i was over confident for these 2 papers. I even went to watch the show billy lent me, i think the title is Get Karl, Go Oh Soo Jung? Not a bad show leis... i watched till epis 12, and i cried. YES, the bitch cried... i never used to cry when i watch all these soapy dramas, and mabz said i had a heart made of stone thats why... but yah... amazed that i was so touched i cried! hahahahaha!!!

Anyways, received some comments that my blog's pretty boring, and i should post some pictures up... okok!!! once my lappie comes back to life, or when i abandon HP fella to maybe Dell new lover, i will get the photos up k??? still owing Alvin's Graduation pics and of cos, PRINCESS NEW HOUSE'S PICTURES!!! stay tuned!

when would i be able to get away from exams? damnit... im damn stressed out for my final 2 papers. i just cannot understand anyting about financial products, and my exam's on wed. Good one felicia. good on ya to take on SO many subjects at once.

O well. its ok... i will be complaining about exams every 6mths till i finish my CPA too... darn~

Finally moved into my new home on saturday! moving houses is really not fun... the packing, the loading of stuff into the car, the unloading of stuff and carrying it up the stairs, the unpacking, the tidying....!!! but o well... we managed to get everything in order and ya... everything is ALL GOOD!!!

Alvin my chipmunk found a good method to transport the stuff to our unit on the 2nd floor... he and his crazy ideas.. first he used his golf putter and asked me to hook all the stuff and he will lift it up. Something like in the past where they put a basket from the flat window and bring it down to the hawker for food... it was a bit scary cos a few bags contained alot of glasses, and if it drops, there goes my beloved aunty's car!!!

But i've gotta admit... that method did save me tonnes of running up and down... i think the times i carried the boxes up and down = to exercise regime of 1/2yrs work lo!!

Moved into property, realised there wasnt any hot water... damnit... perth is bloody hot in the day and cold in the night... machiam like some desert... but the smartie pants AKA yours truly managed to do it all by myself on sunday! hahaha!! saved us the feeling of having to shower in cold water!

Im much happier... much much happier than i was for the past 2 weeks. This house may be small, but it is cosy and enough just for me and alvin. I'm just glad that he was there for me all these while... i cried, i screamed, i shouted, i bite, i did everything bad to him. But he just continued to stand there and let me vent my fustrations out. He knows im happy now... and yes, im glad to be out of the cage. i love my freedom!

Damnit. If im not a Christian, i would be cursing and swearing in all languages. But i refrained myself, because im a Christian, and i promised myself never to swear when i was 10yo.

I hate you, and i hate you to the core. If i can use a vase to smash you on the head, i will. If you are in any ways not related to me, i would have killed you. I hate all the things that you and your family have done to me this past week. It may have seem like nothing, but all the bloody excuses and the god damn times you said "sorry", i hate you.

Dont do things and apologise later for it, when you know its not right in the first place. It is too late to apologise now, because i hate you for what you have done. Bible taught me to forgive, but i cant. This has gone far worst than "i forgive you" stage. You make me in such a bad position, that even your sister is ashamed of you.

You can say that i'm your niece, hold my hand and said you are sorry. But do you really mean it God knows!? I've had enough of your darn comments, and i'm only looking forward to the time i can move out of your house and pronounce "i m no longer a caged bird!" I hate the fact that you are my relative, you are my mum's sister and brother in law, and i have got to face you even when you go into your coffin.

Truth is, i can choose my friends and not my relatives. No matter what, i believe God placed me here for a reason, and I know that i will be stronger once i go thru this damn shit. For now, just go away from me.

Yo!!!

i finally found a place to stay. Alvin and felicia are no longer homeless!!!

Our new place is at south perth, nice place, outside looks abit kok, but inside is small, comfy and clean and pretty and just nice!!!! heheee...

now im in need of furniture. Anyone willing to sponsor me some money or getting me some gift cards!??!!!? i need to buy everything from the start again... hai~

Looking for a place to stay is damn dreadful lahs... i never imagine it to be so terrible...

I'm currently looking for a 2bedroom rental place, budget is $300 max.. unfurnished place is what im looking for.. set such a high budget, but always rejected by these people... damnit... hopefully i can secure a place by this week...

Chinese new yr is around the corneR!!!! whooo hoo!!!