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all the accountants and de financial planning pple had a meeting with our Business Coach (BC) today... what the BC does is to talk to us all in a group to see how we are progressing in our work, any unhappiness and how we think we should improve ourselves.

The meeting was how we should communicate. From Transferring of Data, to Understanding each other, reaching an Agreement and finally, the outcome... Felt it was quite common sense, things that we would do when we will be delegating work to someone...

Saw lin crying when the session was about to finish... and i teared as well... reason was i felt unhappy for her... and i was still bearing something in me about Chris... i know i shouldnt hold on to that, but i dont know why, its just bothering me...

After that, i went to the toilet crying and lin was there comforting me.. i think we reach an understanding that no matter what we do, we cant change the surrounding that we are in... we cant change ourselves in a day, and we are not wanting to see changes in peoples' lives in a day as well... so... just bear with it lo...

Wanted to take my note pad back from the meeting room, and with both of our eyes swollen, BC and Peter was there still talking. so yah, we were "called" to go in to talk to the both of them.. and ya, me and lin, being emotional animals... we burst our crying... like babies..

But all in all, its a good session, we got to understand each other better...and for me, i managed to open us to our BC, sharing with him all de feelings i had bottled up in me... what he said was right... im a Feeler, and a person that will bottle up all my feelings within me... thats no good cos if one fine day, something were to trigger this, i will EXPLODE! and i did...

Learning to adapt to a working environment is never easy... and i finally got to understand it when im working here... im not complaining about stuff, and i know if im unhappy, i can easily move on to another firm and start afresh... but i guess, this place is a good stepping stone and learning enviro for me... im still learning, still gasping whats around me...

but i will be ok soon...