Disintegrate

rate

How can i complain about people not updating their blogs when im not updating mine as well? *hiak*

Been really "busy" at work... yes, its in "" cos i am so free at work... there's time for me to go toilet breaks, tea breaks, even updating blog and reading blog breaks... yes i know, what a fun job hey? but i guess the feeling of nothing to do overtime is very..... siens as what Seng would say... Imagine just sitting here, doing nothing much and earning money from the company.. not that i earn alot, but still, it makes me feel useless to be in this company at times... seriously... i will feel as though i cant contribute much to the company.

Had a talk with my Financial Planning boss about it... and like, i feel bad that i cannot lighten his load at times when he's got so much up his sleeve. I want to help, but being just a rookie, 2 mths into the job, i guess its hard for the seniors to really trust me with work at the moment hey? Im not complaining as long as people are willing to teach, im ever willing to learn...

Been working here 2 months now, and although this company is small, there's still politics flying around... Why when humans are placed together, there will also be fights and arguments and back stabbing and no harmony? Guess its just us humans, the way we are..... Can feel like, this manager who's racist.. she's really harsh towards me and lin cos we are the only 2 asians... i tot i was the only one feeling it, but lin told me she had the same treatment when she was new too... as compared to the other 3 grads that came in, i can really feel the difference on how she's treating me as to treating them.. but i guess this is just part and parcel of working and living in a foreign land other than yours hey?

I really wanted to go back to singapore for good a while ago.. couldnt stand all these racist treatment and everything.. how people will stare at u when u are driving, cos u are an asian, buying all the nice houses and cars... but i was talking to alvin's housemate's girlfriend, an indian teacher in singapore.. she said that she experienced it all the time... even though singapore is such a diversified, multi-cultural country, her colleagues still kinda cornered her cos of her race, and she's used to the treatment... Sigh~ how sad can that be?

I was talking to dear about maybe heading back to sg for good... in a couple of yrs time.. probably the end of 2009 will sound good.. i will then grad fully from my CPA and also with that extra 1 yr, i can do my citizenship here. save the hassle of travelling up and down to fulfill my PR thing... thats the plan for now.. anyways, i have to wait for him till he completes his degree and gain some working experience here...

Counting down to the days that im going bak... darlin maybe going back on the same flight as me!!! hahaha.. good and bad... i told him that if i were to go out with my friends and bump into him on the streets, i will ignore him and dont bother that he's my bf... or even if a guy came up to me and ask for my number, and he's there, he cannot do anything about it... hahaha!!! but yea. my dear is a super fun person to be with... i love him loads!!!!

Counting:
7days to fly back
5 gruelling days at work...