Disintegrate

NAME IS: Felicia
TURNING Twenty Three
LOVES GOD.
HEARTS Papa Chee . Mama Chee . Korkor Chee . Da Sao Chee . Bebe Nat. Mr. Chui
ADORES DA B.I.A.T.C.H.E.S club.

Wish for: a safe life . increment . shoes . bags . clothes . new laptop . weight loss . love .

Friends...

~Ah Seng~
~Chris Lim~
~Denise~
~Frances~
~Godmum~
~Jason~
~Joey~
~Linda~
~Liz
~Maggie~
~Marianne~
~Melvin~
~Mishi~
~RaY~
~Thomas Chua~
Reads...

~Dawn~
~KennySia~
~Nicole~
~NiRa~
~Xiaxue~

Layout: lyricaltragedy
Pattern: tillyness

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Damnit. If im not a Christian, i would be cursing and swearing in all languages. But i refrained myself, because im a Christian, and i promised myself never to swear when i was 10yo.

I hate you, and i hate you to the core. If i can use a vase to smash you on the head, i will. If you are in any ways not related to me, i would have killed you. I hate all the things that you and your family have done to me this past week. It may have seem like nothing, but all the bloody excuses and the god damn times you said "sorry", i hate you.

Dont do things and apologise later for it, when you know its not right in the first place. It is too late to apologise now, because i hate you for what you have done. Bible taught me to forgive, but i cant. This has gone far worst than "i forgive you" stage. You make me in such a bad position, that even your sister is ashamed of you.

You can say that i'm your niece, hold my hand and said you are sorry. But do you really mean it God knows!? I've had enough of your darn comments, and i'm only looking forward to the time i can move out of your house and pronounce "i m no longer a caged bird!" I hate the fact that you are my relative, you are my mum's sister and brother in law, and i have got to face you even when you go into your coffin.

Truth is, i can choose my friends and not my relatives. No matter what, i believe God placed me here for a reason, and I know that i will be stronger once i go thru this damn shit. For now, just go away from me.