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the 3 kids and granny came over for dinner. Aunty rena called after dinner. The reason why uncle brandon suddenly went into coma was due to a stroke. Nw she's still at the hospital. Doctors told her that a major stroke may attack him in these coming days as shown in his medical reports. he cannot leave the hospital as yet.

I totally cannot imagine when my aunty broke the news to us... her 3 kids, my granny, myself, aunty angie (her sister), uncle nelson and callista all just sat there. Uncle nel was stunned. so was i. How could such a thing happened to him of all of sudden? he's been so fit and everything. Now? Granny was really worried.. can see from her facial expression.

Brist, aunty rena's 2nd son said that his mom told him "if daddy was not rushed to the hospital, he could have died" those words really pricked me.. here i'm, sitting with 3 of his kids. there are only 16, 13 and 11 yrs old respectively... yet, they had to receive such news of their daddy.

When would we ever learn to cherish people who mean so much to us? must we wait till something bad happens to them? it really gave me a wake-up call. To cherish people in the present. Whatever things they've done against me, turned their back against me, backstabbed me, betrayed me, i shaln't hold any grudges, but learn to forgive and forget.

This is a painful lesson that i need to learn.

How would u feel if... u are betrayed by someone u trust??? there's this question that i've been pondering for some time...
what do i do??? Act normal and just play along, or vent out my anger on the person???

I'm betrayed by someone i trust.. Sabotage u may think... kinda bad situation now... I'm just praying patiently, quietly that God will take away this anger within me towards the person... that i will not bear grudges against anyone.

what jes said was true "u think everyone are from church?? no... not everyone are like our church people" i agree... there are people that are out there who go thru all means and ways to betray, sabotage, gossip abt one another... its a "dog eat dog world" out there anyway... i should have known this long ago...

I'm silly... i trust people too easily. Maybe thats why people would think that im an easy target to make use of, to just play along with... i shouldnt be so naive anymore.. the world is not as it seems. Its not a fairy tale land out there... its the TRUE world where people backstab each other in order to be better than one another, people compete, people gossip, people sabotage you... and for no reason, you will find yourself deeply hurt by all the commotions of the world.

Im hurt... really hurt now.. i dont know what to do... God... pls help me..